About

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This is me, Neil Snowdon.

Writer, Editor, Film Programmer, Amateur Dad (in the best possible sense of the word ‘amateur’), and a lover of  books and film.

I also suffer with depressive illness.

Though the depression robbed me of the pleasure I found in film for quite some time, the process of recovery has echoed the rediscovery of a simple passion, the purest simplest motivation for everything I now do: LOVE. It might be corny, but it’s also true. The decision to stop pursuing any creative endevour for any other reason than the love of it helped turn my life around.

This blog is about the things I love. The things that excite me. The creative endevours that helped to heal me, and continue to keep me sane. Hence the title, AIM FOR THE HEART.

It’s taken from something Christopher Frayling wrote, when he signed my copy of ‘Something To Do With Death’, his biography of Serio Leone: “Aim for the heart, Ramon.”

Remembering the person I was when I got that book signed, the person  excitedly chattering to Sir Christopher at the cinema I was working in and at which he was about to deliver a talk about Once Upon A Time In The West, was the first step on the road to recovery. It’s sort of my motto now…

“Aim For The Heart…”

Draw from the passion, and aim to inspire it.

Hope you enjoy.

Best,

Neil.

2 thoughts on “About

  1. JP Ward says:

    I’m really glad I found this site. I’ve suffered from major depressive disorder for half my life now, anhedonia robbing me of the pleasure I used to experience from my (former) interests.

    Thanks for being brave enough to talk about your depression. It’s always comforting to find creative people who understand depression.

    Thanks for persevering w/ the Kneale book (I can’t imagine how draining the publisher situation must have been for you). Outside of Lovecraftian weird fiction, Kneale’s one of the few whose work still manages to stimulate my imagination.

    Sincerely,
    JP

    • Neil Snowdon says:

      Thank you, JP. That’s very kind of you. It’s also one of the reasons I try to be open about my condition.

      Thanks, too, for reminding me that I really need to follow up on this. I haven’t blogged specifically about depression for some time now, in part because the many creative projects that keep it at bay leave me little enough time to blog about it.

      But it’s still part of my life. My recovery still moves forward. But there are days – weeks – where I move slowly, tread carefully, because I know the Black Dog is at the door, and I must be very still and not show fear if I don’t want him to bite.

      All the best,
      Neil.

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